Issac, daddy has sat down to try and write something to you for a while, I didn't know what to write or how to say it.  I really thought that we would have more time together, more time to think about what to say to you, to teach you things, to be your daddy.

I wanted to say how much you changed my life in 4 years, how much you taught me, how much you meant to me.  It's hard to try and write something that really expresses how much it hurts to not have you in my life anymore, how much it hurts not to see you everyday, not to wake up to your little face hiding under the blanket because you didn't want to get up for school.

But mommy says we have to remember the good things, to be positive and to try and be happy.  I am struggling with this, I find it hard to be happy when you are not here.

Theres not a day that has passed that I haven't thought about you for most of the day, where I haven't missed you for the whole day, I hope that wherever you are that you are not in any more pain, you are happy and you have your teddies.

I love you little man, I always will

Until we cuddle again

Daddy