I try my hardest to find the words but there isn't anything I can say that will change the way I feel about you not being in my life but I do know that every day spent with you was the best days of my life.

you made mommy so so happy and very proud, you were mommies special boy the most perfect and handsome I know all mommies and daddies say their children are beautiful but you really was.

the feeling inside I got every morning when I woke up that I was actually a mommy was the best feeling anyone could ever experience. your little face made every day so much better the little smiles and the cheeky faces you would pull. the shouting at the tv and the cheeky little ways you got your own way.

mommy tries so hard to live the way you would want to. continue smiling and being happy no matter what this life throws at me.

I'm finding it hard as I really miss you just wish you didn't have to go. 

mommy will fight for you don't you worry.

love you right up to the stars and back again.x x forever and always mommy.xxx